He Cannot Deny Himself

“If we are faithless, he remains faithful—for he cannot deny himself.” 2 Timothy 2:13

Honestly, when I first dipped
my toe in the water last fall, I was half expecting to fail. Fifteen thousand
dollars was a daunting goal and I was half expecting to have to write refund
checks and regretful letters to the folks who did give, explaining that things
just didn’t quite work out and thanks for trying. To be honest, part of me was
even half hoping for failure. At least then I would be able to tell God with an
air of plausibility that I had tried to go into the ministry but failed, and what
more did he really want from me?

He’s probably laughing
right now.

Just before Christmas,
a church in Canada picked me up for $3,600. In March, a man who barely knew me
laid his hands upon my head and prophesied that I was doing exactly what the
Lord wanted me to do, and that I should keep going. Later the same month, a
group of friends from Asbury Seminary, where I had gone to school, held a
fundraiser that wildly exceeded any of my expectations. Slowly but steadily, checks
kept coming. After speaking to my church about Haiti, they began to come more
steadily. Finally, last week, the church eldership itself wrote me a $3,600
check. As things currently stand, I have “raised” $13,200, only $1,800 shy of
my goal for the year.

I put “raised” in
quotation marks because as I’ve said before, I really haven’t done much of
anything to bring this money in. I’ve spoken exactly twice to groups of people about
Haiti. I’ve managed to blog about once a month. I started out with a support base
of virtually zero and now I have dozens of people committed and over $13,000. What
can I say? This doesn’t owe anything to my fundraising prowess. I just happen
to have great friends and a great church and, well, my Father loves me. He has
proven that, time and again.

With only $1,800 left
to go now, I’m excited to be heading back to Haiti. I’m humbled and honored to
be entrusted with teaching the Word of God to a generation of students who are hungry
for truth and committed to extending God’s Kingdom in a very dark place. I’m
thrilled to be a living testimony to the truth that as you step out in faith,
the road will rise to meet you as you go. And that sometimes, when you don’t
have faith, the Lord will provide for you anyway and laugh at the astonished
look on your face.



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